One Day at a Time!

"I am going to blog every day" This is exactly what I told myself and published it on a blog on a cold night of September in 2019 (on 2019?) and if only 'every day' meant 'once in a one year' (you can laugh, comedy tha). How impulsive and stupid of me to do something like, " I am going to blog every day ". Duude, I don't even brush my teeth every day (don't judge me, it ruins the breakfast ka taste). Leaving all that aside, one thing that I understood is, being consistent is tough, like really really tough, it takes more than just planning and just dreaming about it, but again making that into reality is still hard dude, like reaaally hard.  We have the best example right here, I have been planning to write this blog for the past 2 years and it is now when I am doing this, amidst all the chaos I am going through. But it feels good you know, like when I write something, I imagine myself in front of people and me trying to tell them what I am w...

    Some days are hard, some are average, some are crazy awesome and some are 'blah', and people that's the worst of all because you don't know what to do and you go around the clock figuring out what the fudge is happening. And that was exactly what was going on with me for the last 4 days and I am still in that phase where I am trying to figure out what happened on all of a sudden. The blah phase and that figuring out part cost me 2 things :         1. 4 internal exams( I fucking skipped them)         2. didn't write this blog for 4 freaking days. Now when I think back, I am like "was it really necessary to skip those for the sake of sleeping more and faking diarrhoea I didn't have", I still have no clue or maybe it was necessary so that I could come back stronger ( I know you hear that a lot from people who do these kinds of things, but every time you have a hope that you are going to come back stronger every time and ...

    This is some kick-ass effort I am taking every day, and I am actually surprised to see this side of me where I am pushing myself to do this every day and damn from this now I can clearly say " If there are will and determination, everything is possible   in life, everything ", and I am a living example of that ( did I say too much? aaah chuck it ).     Life's hard. PERIOD.     But it's we who decide whether it has to fun fun hard or curse curse hard. The choice is ours and it matters, not to others but for ourself.     Something I understood ( not recently, but it's the first time writing about it so ) is that there's something called self-esteem and it's a very important and integral part of our life. Let it be from asking for something or doing something if you feel you are putting your self-esteem on stake, think once, think twice, think as many times as you want and let it sink that nothing is above your self-esteem, i...