Tougher than I thought

    Damn, yesterday was someday ufff! The responses from you were craaaaaazy awesome and yeah I am not going to stop blogging. But now here's this weird thinking pattern that goes about like "OMG, people are actually reading my blog and I need to write better or I need to put more content in it aaaah FML...". I am happy that I was getting a lot more appreciation than I expected, but at the same time it got me tensed and as usual, I talked it out to Saty and she was like

"Duuuude, just keep writing, don't bother about anything else and write for yourself". 

    The last word she uttered and that got me like "I didn't start because I wanted to be a blogger, I started because I wanted to help myself and others who were going on my same track". And that's when I actually made peace with myself.

    Now to the real motive of the blog:

I am really really lazy person, I need the pressure to work or otherwise, I would just slack off. So this is how I pressurize myself in forcefully doing things. In this case I was like "I have to write so I have to put my effort", I know this might sound very weird and forcing myself to do things which I do not want to do but at the same time I need this because I know that I want to do this, but I am way too lazy to do it and this is how I deal with it. It's very contradictory with the modern philosophy and with what I just said earlier, but as we know it "innovation begins with a change, and I am a very weird person".

    And that's about what happened yesterday after the blog got released.

    Dayum! This is not so easy as I thought it would be, i.e to write something which would be worth publicising it, but WTF this is for me why would I care ( I know I have been contradicting and getting confused, and this is how my thought process works ).

   And the day started off by waking up surprisingly early ( I slept around 2100 hrs :ROFL: ) and had breakfast from the hostel in a long time. Waking up in the morning actually is a nice thing to do even though it makes you grumpy at first but after bathing it's a sorted day!

    As usual, went to class, tried to focus but duuh, my thoughts kept on diverting on what to study for placements, how to get a job, how to a side project and finally how to irritate my neighbour and ended up doing the same but whatever I did I couldn't keep my focus in class, it just kept wandering. So I finally decided to casually browse and was trying to find some reads on JavaScript and to my surprise, I found a pretty interesting course on Udacity which had great reviews and I was like yes this is what I am going to do.

"People never ever do what I just thought, i.e. trying to do multiple things together if you are beginner"

    This is exactly what I was referring to my first blog where I mentioned that I  keep jumping from one thing to another without having a consistency and not focusing on one thing at a time. The important point here is that 

    

"it's not about doing as many courses parallelly, but to focus on ONE THING at a time",

and I finally started off reading the book Eloquent JavaScript. The good thing was the realisation where I could correct my path, as in I think if I was in the same situation maybe a month or two earlier I would have joined that course, spent some time on it and I would have left that course in middle and joined another or would have started randomly searching on how to learn JavaScript, but I am actually happy that I decided to stick to one thing rather than going totally wild on half devouring the courses that I find online. I actually got to thank Adarsh S a.k.a thundu a.k.a @guyandtheworld for reinforcing the fact that I was not focusing on one thing and if I don't change that habit it's a game over for the programmer in me! and now when I think about all the things I left behind like this I actually feel happy and  proud to make that decision ( you might be thinking WTF feeling proud and happy it seems such a showoff, but the way I see and believe is that, small things like these are the most important factors that change our life, as in you can't run without learning how to walk, and  even computers started off as 0's and 1's ).

    A long way to go, I am happy that I am investing time in actually doing something that is productive and to be honest I am not at all satisfied with the technical side of what I did today because I literally didn't do much except for re-reading the chapter which  I already read 2 to 3 months ago ( yes! I did try and failed to keep my learning process and if I actually take the count I think I will lose track). 

    Few more hours to next day, let's see what I can make out of it and I'm hungry af, so that's it for today.

    Have a good day and happy hacking! \m/